day 5

Missing in action

1. Are you to busy? Make a list of your roles and the activities associated with each role in a typical week. Is time alone with God on your list?

some would say yes I'm to busy but some days I am way to busy and some days I'm not.

my roles

-MOPS coordinator

-ASC

-Home group

-GKGW

ASC is not an option. It's my job and I love it. MOPS takes a good portion of my time but I love it too. Home group takes very little time outside of the actual meeting and that's the same with GKGW. So in actuality I am not very busy at all. Yet I struggle to make quite time for God on a daily basis. I take great comfort in God but to sit down and make quite time is a daily struggle. I need to make more of an effort.

2. Do you feel as if you've been avoiding facing your hurt? Why or why not? Why do you think it is so difficult for you to be still?

I have for sure been avoiding facing my hurt. I did a good job at first dealing with it but it was so easy to tuck my hurt away and just not think about it. I'll deal with it another day when I'm not so busy, or when I feel stronger. Neither of those days ever come though. I think it's difficult for me to be still because I can't shut my head off. More often than not when I sit down to be quite I can't pray. I can't focus on what I want to pray about and my head zooms off in a million different directions. It drives me crazy.

3. Where is your foxhole of faith, the physical place you go to be still with God? If you don't have a place, where could you go? Read psalm 46, Matthew 11:28, and psalm 5.

The place I go most often is my bedroom but I have a TV in there and my computer. It's sometimes hard to ignore their draw. I don't really have any other place to go in my home. I am so easily distracted and I am so rarely home alone to have quite time in the kitchen. I just need to set the time aside and just be a big girl and make it happen. I tried sitting at the kitchen table today and as long as no one is home it works but Tyler is about to get out of school for the summer and I'm taking on some extra responsibility this summer. After reading the bible verses I see that all that matters is I make time for him. I will find my rest in him and I need to keep my focus on that. I will find my fox hole and rest in him.

4. Schedule at least ten min. each day to be still with God. Take your list of activities to Him and ask Him to show you the roles you need to release for a time.

5. Are there others who can help you face reality and share your load? Who are they?

I already have more help that I could have ever wished form. I have more support in this season of my life than I have had in any other. I am truly blessed in that way.