Saturday, July 9, 2011

day 10

Husbands and wives grieve differently
It has been 10 months since I last opened this book. I don't know why I fell off. I am back on now. The one year anniversary of my loss and come and gone and they day was kinda overshadowed by 20 or so inches of snow. On 2/1 we had a massive blizzard and I spent a good portion of 2/2 shoveling snow. Sean and I got to spend the whole day together so it was nice. I still have moments but they don't hurt quite so much. On to the devotion.......

1. How do you are your spouse express grief differently?
That is a tough question. Sean and I are both very different and I don't really know how he expresses grief. I know that I cry and get angry. I want tangible reminders of those I have lost. I still have the book marks that we got from the funeral home from when my grandparents died. Sean has never made me fell silly for grieving our loss to hard but I have felt alone in my grief often.

2. our loss has drawn Sean and I closer rather than create distance. We have experience two soul shaking tragedies in our marriage and each one binds us together that much more. I know Sean will never leave me and that he will always be in love with me just as I will be with him. We have walked through fire and come out on the other side, the only way we made it is because we clung to each other. At the time of Sean's brain tumor we did not have a relationship with God but I know that God was by my side during the whole 12 days my husband fought for his life in the ICU. That led us to where we are today and I could never had made it through my miscarriage without God and my church family.

That is it for today. There are a few excercies in here that I hope I can do with Sean to help me better understand how he grieves because I honestly don't know.